Today started with suck. I woke up depressed and didn’t get out of that funk for a while. My mom called and I sort of broke down about not having a job and my parent’s health insurance running out on me. She said I need to make a pest of myself, emailing the HR department directly about a week after filling out an online application. I’m just not good at that. I think I should be able to get a job on my merits rather than being the person who badgers them to give me a job. But, usually the people who go after things get what they want. I guess I’m not ambitious enough.
I took a look at my kimono collection and my gothic lolita clothes to see what I’d be willing to part with. There’s two, maybe three, kimono and one dress that could I bear selling. The kimono won’t sell for very much, but I could get a nice sum for the dress. If it comes to it, I can sell more valuable parts of my collection. Luckily kimono and lolita clothes don’t loose much value on the resale market.
Anyway, I’ve got to find something for my mom for both Mother’s day and her birthday. I have no clue what to get her. I think I’m going to check out Etsy because there’s always artsy and funky stuff there. Of course that doesn’t necessarily narrow it down, but it’s a start.
I’ve also updated Eelpoutart with a new-ish layout and some new items. I used me some PHP in that there navigation. I think I really need to sit my butt down and learn PHP. I learned CSS and HTML all by myself, so why not PHP as well?
Why do all the jobs look for someone who’s: high spirited, a team player, energetic, positive, enthusiastic, outgoing, etc. To me that just says hyper with a maybe hint of irresponsibility. Why aren’t they looking for someone who’s: diligent, punctual, serious, independent, reliable, dedicated or thorough? Another thing I really hate are those online questionnaires you have to take for some applications. It seems like everything is against those of us that are shy or reserved. Sure I may not talk very much on the job, but you see that huge stack of stuff to stock? I’ll get that done faster than you can even think. Hell, I’ll probably do it in half the time as the cute bubbly sweet girl you have working with me.
I have no problem working with people or dealing with clients. I am a very polite person who can be outgoing and very charming when I need to be. But no one can expect me to be like that all of the time.
My personality is ITNJ. I am a diligent worker. I am also extremely introverted and very intelligent. I often come off as cold to people I don’t know, when in actuality my close friends and family say I am a nice and warm person. I get the short end of the stick for personality types; I am very smart but have a hard time with relationships, so I’m often the odd one out.
Why is it so hard for me to find work when I so want to work? 
I’ve made it a goal to apply to at least 3 places a day until someone finally contacts me back. It’s really hard when I know I can do the job, but I have a feeling I just won’t get it because someone who’s more extroverted will get it.
Oh, and my birthday’s coming up on May 1st! I’m going to be 23! 
I don’t have any plans, but birthdays were never really big with me. I’ll be happy with some cake and a nice dinner. I think I’ll be actually getting two cakes this year: one from my grandparents this weekend and one I buy for myself on my birthday. 
I’ve always wanted a surprise party but never had enough, or close enough, friends that would do it for me.
I’m back from my visit at home. I think it went well, and I got to spend some quality time with my mom, which was really nice.
I’m going to kick myself into high gear for a job search. I sent my resume off to 4 places this morning, for jobs that sound very nice and that I think I should be able to do with no problem. Both Rob and mom suggested that I spam places with my resume. I don’t really know if that’s a good idea, but I am going to try and apply for more jobs. My mom also suggested the Want Ads in the paper and I had never thought of that. So, time to get my ass in gear!
My sister was really sick though when I left yesterday. She had been throwing up all night. She says she’s better now, so that’s good. She also called me earlier saying her computer had crapped out. She had a paper on it that is due on Monday. I told her what I think she should do to recover the data, but I told her that her best bet was to re-write the paper. If she were here with me I could remove the hard drive and possibly recover the data. Her issue sounds more like a hardware problem than a broken hard drive. Hopefully she can recover her data. She’s getting a new computer for college anyway, so it was about time that her current laptop (my old laptop) died. It was a good laptop and did what I needed it to do.
